Author: Anne Dranitsaris, Ph.D.

The path to becoming who you’re meant to be begins by questioning the stories you’ve accepted as true.

Have you ever reacted to something someone said or did, only to discover later that you’d completely misunderstood their intentions? You were so certain about what their behavior meant that you didn’t consider another explanation. By the time you realized what was actually happening, you’d already experienced the hurt, anger, or rejection that came from your interpretation.

We like to believe we’re responding to what’s happening around us, but we’re often responding to what we’ve made it mean. And that meaning comes from the stories we’ve developed about ourselves, often long before we were old enough to understand what was really happening.

𝗢𝘂𝗿 𝗦𝘁𝗼𝗿𝘆 𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝘀 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗪𝗲 𝗦𝗲𝗲

As children, we interpret our experiences through our limited understanding of ourselves and the people we depend on. When a parent is critical, disappointed, or emotionally unavailable, we don’t understand all the reasons for their behavior. Instead, we make it about ourselves. We decide we’re not important, we’re too demanding, or we’re simply not good enough.

These early interpretations become beliefs that shape how we experience relationships throughout our lives. If our story is that we’re not important, an unanswered message feels like rejection. If our story is that we’re inadequate, constructive feedback feels like criticism. If we’ve learned that love depends on keeping others happy, someone’s disappointment feels like evidence that we’ve done something wrong.

The situation isn’t necessarily what causes our distress. It’s the meaning our story gives to it.

𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗢𝘂𝗿 𝗜𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗕𝗲𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘀 𝗢𝘂𝗿 𝗥𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘆

Our self-protective brain is constantly looking for signs that something threatens our safety, belonging, or worth. When a situation resembles an earlier experience, we automatically interpret it through our old story and react as though that interpretation were the truth.

We become defensive, withdraw, apologize unnecessarily, or try harder to gain approval. Sometimes our reactions create the very problems we’re afraid of experiencing, reinforcing the beliefs that caused them in the first place. We continue relying on our adaptive persona, the self-protective version of ourselves we developed to feel safe and accepted.

𝗟𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗦𝗲𝗲 𝗕𝗲𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗱 𝗢𝘂𝗿 𝗦𝘁𝗼𝗿𝘆

Development begins when we learn to separate what happened from what we made it mean. We become capable of recognizing that someone else’s disappointment doesn’t mean we’ve failed, disagreement isn’t necessarily rejection, and another person’s behavior isn’t always about us.

This is how we begin moving beyond the adaptive persona and developing the capacities of our authentic self. Instead of automatically responding from old beliefs, we develop the ability to understand ourselves and others more accurately.

𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘅𝘁 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘂𝗽𝘀𝗲𝘁𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂, 𝗮𝘀𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳: 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝘂𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗵𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗻𝗲𝗱, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗱𝗶𝗱 𝗜 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗶𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻?

You already know your version of the story. The question is whether you’re ready to discover what else might be true.

If you’re beginning to recognize how your old stories shape your perceptions, reactions, and relationships, therapy or coaching can help you understand where those stories came from and develop beyond them. Through my unique developmental approach, I help people move beyond the self-protective patterns of their adaptive persona and develop the capacities of their authentic self, so they can respond to life as it is rather than through the lens of their past.

𝗜𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂’𝗿𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗿𝘆 𝘆𝗼𝘂’𝘃𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝗺𝗲 𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗱@𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗱𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗶𝘁𝘀𝗮𝗿𝗶𝘀.𝗰𝗼𝗺 𝘁𝗼 𝗲𝘅𝗽𝗹𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘄𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸 𝘁𝗼𝗴𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿.

Most of us have a story we tell ourselves when something happens that leaves us feeling uncertain, exposed, rejected, criticized, or disappointed. Someone doesn’t answer a message, your boss suddenly wants a meeting, a friend seems distant, your partner is quiet, or you make a mistake at work. Before we know what any of it means, our brain starts filling in the blanks, and for many people the story quickly becomes some version of, “I did something wrong,” “I made them mad,” or “I should have handled that better.” Underneath those thoughts is often an older and more deeply rooted belief that says, “I’m not good enough.”

That belief can take many forms. Maybe it’s not smart enough, successful enough, lovable enough, capable enough, attractive enough, or interesting enough. Whatever form it takes, the story often begins early, when we’re trying to make sense of what’s happening in relationships with the people we depend on most.

Where the Story Begins

As children, we don’t have the developmental capacity to understand the complexity of our parents’ inner lives. We don’t know that a parent may be stressed because of work, unhappy because of their marriage, depressed because of their own history, or overwhelmed by circumstances that have nothing to do with us. We only know how they are behaving toward us, and when that behavior includes criticism, blame, withdrawal, shaming, or emotional unpredictability, we tend to make sense of it in a very personal way.

If a parent is upset, we assume we caused it. If they are disappointed, we believe we’ve failed. If they’re stressed and tell us we’re too demanding, too sensitive, too difficult, too selfish, or too much, we don’t have the ability to step back and question whether the problem belongs to them. Instead, we start adapting.

We become more careful about what we say, more attentive to their moods, more helpful, more agreeable, more successful, or less demanding. Over time, we come to believe that we must be what others need us to be to feel safe and connected. Over time, this becomes our primary way of self-regulation.

How the Self-Protective Brain Takes Over

Once the brain sees our primary caregivers as unsafe, our self-protective system becomes more vigilant. We start scanning to see how others are feeling before thinking about our own feelings. We think about how others want us to act and behave before speaking or acting. We constantly notice tone, expression, silence, withdrawal, irritation, disappointment, and subtle shifts in behavior because we’ve learned those cues may signal danger to the relationship.

Without realizing it, we begin to organize ourselves around preventing that danger. We may become highly responsible because being dependable brings approval. We may become pleasing because conflict feels risky. We may become accomplished because success brings recognition. We may become independent because relying on others feels unsafe. We may become emotionally contained because vulnerability feels too exposing.

The specific pattern differs from person to person, but the process is the same. We develop an adaptive persona that helps us protect ourselves and get our needs met. The more successful that persona becomes, the more we rely on it, and eventually we stop experiencing it as a strategy. It simply feels like who we are.

When Everything Starts to Feel Personal

One of the consequences of this developmental delay is that we continue to experience other people through the lens of ourselves. Instead of seeing another person as separate from us, with their own thoughts, moods, history, needs, and reactions, we make their behavior mean something about us.

If a friend becomes distant, we may immediately wonder what we did wrong. If a partner is quiet, we may feel compelled to fix the mood. If someone disagrees with us, we may experience it as rejection rather than difference. If another person succeeds, we may feel diminished rather than simply able to recognize their accomplishment.

This kind of self-referral can become so automatic that we don’t notice it happening. We assume that because someone else’s reaction affects us, it must also be about us.

From a developmental perspective, this means our relationship system is closed. We haven’t fully developed the ability to self-regulate in the face of someone else’s opinions, behavior, and emotions without making it about us.

Why This Can Look Narcissistic

The adaptive behaviors that come out of our story resemble narcissistic behavior, although the underlying intention is different.  Instead of staying curious about what’s happening for the other person, we pull the experience back into our own story. Someone tells us about an achievement and, rather than simply sharing their excitement, we feel diminished and start comparing ourselves. Someone is disappointed because we’ve said no, and suddenly we’re telling ourselves we’re selfish, so we change our mind to relieve our own discomfort. We’re excluded from something and immediately create a story that we’re not liked, not good enough, or somehow less important, which then drives us to try harder to fit in. In each case, what belongs to the other person gets filtered through our story.

That’s the common thread. Self-referral keeps us trapped inside our own story because we don’t ask, “What’s going on with them?” and instead ask, “What does this mean about me?” The other person’s experience gets lost as our self-protective brain rushes to interpret everything through the lens of inadequacy, rejection, or blame.

Development allows us to move beyond that. We can let someone else’s success belong to them without experiencing it as evidence of our failure. We can tolerate another person’s disappointment without immediately deciding we’ve done something wrong. We can hear disagreement without experiencing it as rejection, and we can be left out without automatically turning exclusion into proof that we’re unworthy.

That’s what begins to open the relationship system and allow the authentic self to emerge. We become better able to recognize where the other person ends and where we begin, giving both people more room to exist as separate, whole individuals.

The Cost of the “Not Good Enough” Story

The real cost of the “not good enough” story isn’t simply insecurity. It’s that we begin organizing our lives around disproving it.

We work harder because success makes us feel more secure. We become indispensable because being needed reassures us. We take care of everyone because usefulness feels safer than simply being ourselves. We try to be attractive, accomplished, competent, agreeable, interesting, or impressive because each of those qualities seems to offer some temporary evidence that we’re okay.

The problem is that the reassurance never lasts for very long. If the original belief remains intact, every new situation becomes another opportunity to test whether we’re enough. Approval feels good, but we need more of it. Achievement feels satisfying, but only until the next comparison or disappointment. Being needed feels reassuring, but only while people continue to need us.

Our authentic self remains undeveloped because the story and beliefs underneath have never really changed.I think of this as a developmental delay because healthy development requires us to become increasingly capable of differentiating ourselves from other people. We need to learn that someone else can be unhappy without it being our fault, that another person’s disappointment does not automatically mean we have failed, and that someone else’s success does not diminish our own value. We also need to develop the capacity to tolerate uncertainty rather than immediately using an old story to explain what we do not yet understand.

When that development is delayed, we continue to manage the external world in much the same way we did when we were younger. We watch, anticipate, adapt, rescue, apologize, appease, defend, or try harder because these strategies once helped us feel safer. The behavior may look highly responsible or even admirable from the outside, but the underlying motivation remains connected to the fear that something bad will happen if we do not manage the situation correctly.

This is where the “not good enough” story can become particularly powerful. If we believe that our safety, belonging, approval, or connection depends on being better, doing more, or not making mistakes, we continue strengthening the very behaviors that keep the story alive. Instead of developing beyond the old pattern, we become increasingly skilled at functioning within it.

How This Makes Us Forget Who We Are Meant to Be

When so much of our attention is focused on protecting our worth, there’s very little room left for development. We’re too busy monitoring relationships, managing impressions, avoiding rejection, and maintaining the adaptive persona to notice what else in us wants to grow.

We may know how to achieve, but not how to rest. We know how to please, but not how to assert ourselves. We know how to care for others, but not how to receive. We know how to stay in control, but not how to tolerate uncertainty. We become highly developed in the capacities that protect us and less developed in the capacities that belong to the authentic self.

That’s why the “not good enough” story can keep us from becoming who we are meant to be. It keeps us in a developmental loop where we spend so much energy answering the question, “Am I okay?” that we never get far enough to ask, “Who am I meant to be?”

Remembering Who You Are Meant to Be

It’s easy to believe that our story feels true because it is wired into our brain and activates automatically. But that doesn’t make it the truth about who we are. It was shaped in relationships where we didn’t yet have the developmental capacity to understand what belonged to us and what belonged to someone else.

As adults, we can begin to see that distinction more clearly. We can notice when we’re assuming responsibility for someone else’s feelings, when we’re making comparison into a judgment about our worth, or when we’re reacting to criticism as though it confirms something fundamentally wrong with us.

Each time we recognize the old story instead of automatically living from it, we loosen the adaptive persona’s grip and redirect our energy into developing the capacities of the authentic self. This includes responding from who we are now, not from who we had to become to feel safe, accepted, or good enough.

That’s where remembering who you are meant to be begins.

Not by proving your worth, fixing yourself, or becoming someone new, but by recognizing that the adaptive persona was never meant to run your life forever. It helped you survive what you once needed to survive. Development asks you to stop living from your self-protective system and become you were always meant to be.

There’s a particular kind of loneliness that comes with being a successful woman. People see what you’ve accomplished, how you carry yourself, the life you’ve created, your confidence, your appearance, your relationships, and the attention you receive. They see the outside and assume they know the woman.

But what happens when another woman doesn’t just notice your success, but she starts comparing herself with it, decides she comes up short, and blames you for making her feel that way?

You feel it before you understand it. There’s less warmth, less curiosity, and a little more edge. Something you’re proud of gets minimized. Attention gets redirected away from you. A compliment doesn’t quite feel like a compliment. You’re excluded from something you assumed you’d be part of. Before long, you realize you’re not simply being seen as another woman. You’ve become someone against whom another woman is measuring herself.

And when envy enters a relationship, it doesn’t usually announce itself as envy. It shows up in behavior.

Here are 10 ways women behave when they’re reacting to envy without recognizing it. It’s primitive and self-protective, and it’s deeply destructive to the woman on the receiving end who has done nothing more than show up as herself: successful, intelligent, attractive, happy in her relationship, or comfortable with who she is.

1. She Minimizes What You’ve Accomplished

Have you ever shared something you were proud of, and instead of genuine interest, you get silence, a quick change of subject, or a response that somehow takes the accomplishment away from you? You share that you’ve just been promoted into a leadership role, and another woman responds, “You must have known someone to get promoted that quickly,” despite the years you’ve spent working toward your career goals.

Suddenly, your discipline is luck, your competence is connections, and your hard work gets explained away. What hurts isn’t simply the comment. It’s the implication that the achievement isn’t really yours and that someone or something else must have made it happen for you.

2. She Redirects Attention Away From You

Have you ever started talking about something important to you and watched another woman immediately take over the conversation? You mention something happening at work, and before anyone responds, she jumps in with her own story. Suddenly everyone is animated and asking her questions while what you were saying disappears. Nobody circles back. You’re still sitting there, but somehow you’ve gone from participant to audience.

The same thing happens with ideas and contributions. You make a suggestion, and it goes nowhere. Someone else raises essentially the same idea later, and suddenly it’s brilliant. You offer to help, and no one acknowledges it, while another woman makes a similar offer and gets praised for her generosity. It isn’t simply that the attention moved on. It’s the repeated experience of becoming invisible while you’re still sitting right there.

3. She Devalues What She Once Admired

This is one of the most confusing shifts in a relationship. A woman who once openly admired things about you gradually becomes one of your biggest critics, both to you and to other people. At first, she tells you how much she admires your confidence, your career, your style, your relationship, or the life you’ve built. Later, those same qualities become evidence of something wrong with you.

Speak confidently, and suddenly you’re bragging. Your intelligence becomes showing off, your standards become demanding, and your attractiveness becomes vanity. Your success came too easily, your marriage probably isn’t as good as it looks, and whatever you’ve accomplished gets diminished once she finishes explaining it. How do you feel close to someone who keeps turning what she once admired about you into evidence against you?

4. She Starts Looking for What’s Wrong With You

When another woman is competing with you because she envies you, she starts looking for the flaw that will bring you back down to size. She seems to have far more energy for what’s going wrong in your life than for what’s going right. She leans into your problems in a way she never leans into your good news. A setback gets more attention than an accomplishment, and vulnerability seems to make her noticeably more comfortable with you.

Sometimes you realize that the struggling version of you is easier for her to like than the successful one. That’s a painful realization because friendship is supposed to hold both. You want someone who cares when you’re hurting and is genuinely happy when you’re thriving.

5. She Excludes You

Have you ever been sitting right there and still felt excluded?

You’re sitting at the same table, and she turns her body toward the person on her other side, effectively closing you out of the conversation. Or you run into her at a meeting and hear her talking about a dinner party she hosted where everyone else seems to have been invited except you. A woman who is warm and engaged with you privately becomes cooler when other women are around. Conversations change when you walk into the room, or you find yourself physically included but relationally left on the outside.

The message is subtle but unmistakable: you’re welcome enough to be present, but not enough to fully belong.

6. She Assigns Motives to You That You Don’t Recognize

Projection is one of the most confusing parts of being envied because suddenly you’re being told what you think, feel, and intend. You’re accused of competing when you weren’t competing. Your confidence is interpreted as arrogance, your boundaries become rejection, and your enjoyment of being noticed becomes evidence that you always need to be the center of attention.

You try to explain yourself because being misunderstood feels awful, but the explanation rarely helps once a story has already been created about you. Defending yourself becomes further evidence that you’re defensive, clarifying what you meant becomes controlling the narrative, and standing up for yourself becomes aggression. Eventually, you realize the other woman isn’t responding to who you actually are. She’s responding to the version of you she has created.

7. She Talks About You Instead of Talking to You

Gossip gives envy a social life without requiring the vulnerability of a direct conversation. Instead of asking you what you meant, she tells someone else what she thinks you meant. Instead of checking whether her interpretation is accurate, she shares it. Small interactions get retold with a particular spin, and other women become part of a story about you before they’ve had enough experience with you to form their own opinion.

This is how one woman’s projection becomes a group narrative. Suddenly, women who barely know you have decided you’re intimidating, arrogant, difficult, self-centered, controlling, or whatever label has taken hold. They feel as though they know you because they’ve heard so much about you, even though they’ve never actually taken the time to know you themselves. How do you repair a relationship when everyone has been talking about you and no one has actually talked to you?

8. She Competes With You When You Weren’t Competing

One of the strangest experiences is discovering that you’ve been entered into a competition you didn’t know existed. You share something, and she needs to top it. You receive recognition, and she immediately introduces her own accomplishment. You mention something positive in your relationship, career, or life, and she finds a way to establish that hers is equal or better.

You weren’t keeping score, but suddenly you realize someone else was. This is where ordinary conversation starts feeling exhausting. Instead of two women sharing their lives, there’s a constant undercurrent of comparison. The unspoken question becomes who is more successful, attractive, interesting, accomplished, or admired. You stop feeling like you’re in a relationship and realize you’ve been in a competition you didn’t even know existed.

9. She Leans In When You’re Struggling

This one is particularly confusing because, on the surface, it looks like caring. Something goes wrong in your life and suddenly she becomes more engaged. She asks more questions, offers more advice, and seems warmer and more comfortable with you. For once, she gets to be the successful, helpful, or knowledgeable one in the relationship.

There’s nothing wrong with a friend caring about your difficulties, of course. The difference becomes clear when you compare her response to your pain with her response to your joy.

10. She Tries to Put You in Your Place

Sometimes envy becomes an ongoing need to correct, challenge, tease, diminish, or subtly humble you. There’s the unnecessary correction in front of other people, the joke with a little sting in it, the backhanded compliment, or the comment designed to remind everyone that you’re not quite as impressive as you seem.

Individually, these moments are easy to explain away. Collectively, they tell a different story. The constant need to bring you down a notch isn’t intimacy or friendly teasing. It’s competition expressed through devaluation, with your value being reduced so she can feel better about her own

The Problem Begins When You Start Changing Yourself

After enough experiences like these, something happens to you. You start anticipating other women’s reactions before they even occur. You talk less about what’s going well. You minimize your accomplishments before anyone else gets the chance. You become careful about mentioning money, travel, recognition, relationships, opportunities, your appearance, or anything else that seems to activate comparison.

You reassure people that your life isn’t perfect. You make sure they know you struggle too. You monitor how much attention you’re getting and whether you’re taking up too much space. This is when envy starts costing you far more than a friendship because you begin editing yourself in anticipation of how other women will react to you.

Being Impressive Starts Feeling Safer Than Being Intimate

The irony is that the more other women judge what you’ve developed and achieved as your authentic self, the more tempting it becomes to retreat into an adaptive persona that feels safer. Instead of showing up fully, you become a better audience. You listen more, share less, and reveal only the parts of yourself that seem unlikely to trigger comparison.

You start editing yourself before anyone else gets the chance. You find things to devalue about yourself so you don’t seem too confident. You monitor anything that might sound boastful, minimize what’s going well, and sometimes even dress down so you don’t attract the kind of attention that has brought envy before. Without realizing it, you begin managing yourself around other women instead of simply being yourself with them.

Then people look at you and see a woman who seems self-contained and doesn’t appear to need much from anyone. What they don’t see is how much of you has gone underground. Underneath, you’re wondering whether there are women who actually want to know you without comparing themselves with you, competing with you, judging you, or turning you into a symbol of everything they believe they don’t have.

Over time, you realize there are only a few places where you don’t have to dumb yourself down, soften your confidence, minimize your accomplishments, or make yourself less visible. You are fully yourself when you’re alone and with the select few who don’t feel threatened by who you are. Those are the relationships where intimacy becomes possible because you no longer have to choose between being known and being accepted.

Being Watched Isn’t the Same as Being Known

Successful women are often watched closely. People notice what you wear, what you achieve, where you go, who you know, what your relationship looks like, how you age, what you buy, and whether your life continues to match the picture they have of you.

But attention isn’t intimacy. Knowing someone requires curiosity. It means wanting to understand who she is beyond what she represents to you. It means hearing about her success without immediately comparing it with your own life, and hearing about her struggles without feeling relieved that she isn’t so fortunate after all.

The woman who envies you is relating to you through comparison rather than curiosity. She isn’t really asking, “Who are you?” She’s asking, “What does your life say about mine?” There is no place for you in this relationship as there is only self-referral.

Time to Stop Apologizing

There comes a point when you realize that making yourself smaller hasn’t protected you anyway. You can dress down, soften your opinions, minimize what you’ve achieved, avoid talking about the things you’re proud of, and make sure everyone understands that your life isn’t perfect. Someone who needs to find fault with you will still find it. At some point, you have to ask yourself why you keep abandoning parts of yourself to make someone else more comfortable.

It’s time to stop pretending you aren’t proud of what you’ve worked for and hiding what’s going well because someone else feels uncomfortable. You can stay open to honest feedback because self-awareness still matters without automatically assuming that another woman’s reaction means you’ve done something wrong. Instead, you become much more discerning about whose opinions you allow to shape the way you see yourself

You Still Want Other Women in Your Life

Being hurt by women doesn’t stop you from wanting relationships with women. If anything, it makes you clearer about the kind of relationships you want.

You want women who are curious about you instead of competitive with you. You want to share good news without calculating how much enthusiasm is safe. You want to be attractive without apologizing for being noticed, successful without minimizing what you’ve accomplished, confident without being accused of arrogance, and vulnerable without wondering whether someone is secretly relieved to discover that your life isn’t perfect.

You want to be able to celebrate another woman without making her success mean something about you, and you want the same generosity in return. Isn’t that what friendship between women is supposed to feel like?

Become the Woman You Are Meant to Be

Success doesn’t remove the need to be known. If anything, it makes the difference between being admired and being understood much clearer. Being envied stops feeling flattering when it shows up as comparison, competition, minimizing, devaluation, exclusion, projection, gossip, and an ongoing search for something that proves you aren’t as fortunate as you appear. What looks like attention from the outside becomes profoundly lonely when no one seems interested in knowing the woman underneath it.

The answer isn’t to retreat into your adaptive self by pretending to be less successful, less attractive, less confident, less visible, or less alive. It’s to remain connected to your authentic self and stop adjusting who you are around women who need you to become smaller before they can feel comfortable beside you.

If you’re a successful woman who has worked hard to become more authentically yourself and you’re envied for it, you still want what every woman wants in her relational world: to be known without being reduced, celebrated without being competed with, and loved without having to make yourself smaller first.

If you took away the roles you play, the expectations you meet, and the version of you that other people have come to rely on, how much of yourself would you still recognize?

That question gives me pause because most of us have spent years becoming someone. Maybe you’re the competent one, the successful one, the dependable one, the peacemaker, the person who keeps everyone happy, or the one who always seems to have it together. You’ve probably gotten pretty good at being that person, and chances are other people have come to expect it from you.

But somewhere underneath all of that, you may also know there’s more to you than the persona you’ve become so good at presenting.

Who are you when you’re not being who everyone else needs or expects you to be?

That’s the question behind the Become Who You Are Meant to Be Month.

I created this month because we spend an enormous amount of time managing our lives and surprisingly little time thinking about our own development. We work, take care of people, deal with problems, fulfill family and career responsibilities, and keep driving ourselves beyond exhaustion.

It’s hard to stop and realize that have become so good at being what others expect us to be that we have lost sight of the person we are meant to be.

So What Does It Actually Mean?

Becoming who you are meant to be doesn’t require moving to an ashram, quitting your job, finding your one true purpose, or completely reinventing yourself.

It means:

1. Getting curious about yourself again. Not the roles you play, but who you are underneath them.
2. Knowing what drives you. Your predominant need tells you a lot about what gives you energy and when you’re moving away from yourself.
3. Noticing where your energy is going. Are you developing your authentic self or putting more effort into maintaining your adaptive persona?
4. Developing capacities you haven’t fully used yet. There’s more available to you than the strengths you already know how to rely on.
5. Choosing development throughout your life. You’re not finished your development just because others see you as successful or reached a certain age.

And What Doesn’t It Mean?

It doesn’t mean:

1. Finding a secret destiny you somehow missed. There isn’t one correct life you were supposed to figure out.
2. Becoming someone completely different. Development is about becoming more of yourself, not somebody else.
3. Fixing everything that’s “wrong” with you. You’re developing potential, not repairing a defective product.
4. Adding another achievement to your list. You can be incredibly successful and still be living mostly from your adaptive persona.
5. Waiting for your authentic self to magically unfold. Potential needs your participation. You have to develop it.

That last one is most important.

Two Agendas, One Path to Become Who You Are Meant to Be

The authentic self is a fully formed person hiding inside us, waiting for the right moment to appear.

In the Striving Styles Personality System, our self-actualizing system directs energy toward the development of the authentic self, while our self-protective system directs energy toward the adaptive persona we created to cope, belong, succeed, and feel safe.

Both have their own agenda. The interesting question is which one has been getting most of your energy.

You can spend years making the adaptive persona stronger. You can get even better at being responsible, pleasing, accomplished, independent, needed, impressive, or in control. Other people may even congratulate you for it while something inside you becomes increasingly dissatisfied.

Or you can listen to that little nudge that says, There’s more to me than this.

I think that nudge matters. It’s the seed within our authentic self calling us toward development, reminding us that there are still capacities to develop, experiences to have, and parts of ourselves to bring into our lives.

What Are You Waiting For?

One of the easiest things to do is tell ourselves we’ll pay attention to our own development later. When work settles down. When the kids need us less. When the relationship is better. When we retire. When we have more time, more energy, more money, or fewer things demanding our attention.

The problem is that life rarely clears the calendar and announces that it’s finally time to become who you are meant to be.

We can’t rely on magical thinking either. Knowing there’s more to us doesn’t develop it. Reading about our personality doesn’t develop it. Understanding why we behave the way we do doesn’t automatically change how we live.

At some point, we have to participate.

We have to notice when we’re strengthening the same old persona instead of developing something new. We have to listen when our predominant need tells us something is off. We have to take the capacities of our authentic self out of the realm of possibility and start using them in our actual lives.

There may never be a perfect time to become who you are meant to be. There is only the point at which you decide to stop waiting and start developing.

The path to achieving your potential starts with the Striving Styles.

Someone recently asked me what it means to become “Who You Are Meant to Be.” It made me stop and think because those words are so deeply connected to both my work and the way I live my life that I sometimes forget other people don’t necessarily know what I mean by them.

Who Are You Meant to Be was the title of my quiz and article in O, The Oprah Magazine. It was also the name of my book that introduced the Striving Styles Personality System, and it captures what I’ve spent much of my career helping people do. More personally, it reflects how I’ve tried to live my own life. I’ve kept growing, challenging the ways I’ve adapted, developing parts of myself that didn’t come as easily, and trying to live more and more from who I authentically am.

For me, becoming who you are meant to be has never meant discovering some predetermined life you’re supposed to live or uncovering a perfect version of yourself that’s been hiding underneath everything else. It isn’t about becoming more successful, accomplishing more, fixing yourself, or trying to become someone you think you should be.

It’s about development. It’s about understanding the potential you came into the world with and doing the work required to develop it.

We Are Born With a Psychological Blueprint

In my book, Who Are You Meant to Be, I spoke of how at the moment of our birth, our authentic self knows both our purpose and potential. And then we forget. It becomes the unthought known, buried in the recesses of our unconscious. Some of us wake up early to the awareness of our purpose and are able to set our own course in life. For others it comes later on or during a normal life stage and transition. But none of us come into the world as blank slates.

Your authentic self contains the blueprint for who you are meant to be. To help you in your authentic development, how your brain is hard-wired at birth or your Striving Style reflects the natural strengths, abilities, and talents available to help you realize that potential. The predominant need of your Striving Style acts like an inner guide. When you are meeting it in healthy ways, you are more likely to feel engaged, energized, aligned, and on purpose. When that need is repeatedly frustrated, it is often a sign that you are moving away from your authentic development and into self-protective, adaptive behaviors.

Understanding how you use the energy of your Striving Style, along with your Auxiliary Styles, is important because it helps explain something I have seen repeatedly in my work. We can appear highly successful, capable, and accomplished on the outside while relying on internal patterns that are actually limiting our development.

We Chose What Brain System Develops

In the Striving Styles Personality System, I describe the two brain systems that shape how we use our energy. The self-actualizing system directs us toward developing our authentic self. The self-protective system directs us toward creating and maintaining an adaptive persona that helps us feel safe, accepted, and in control.

We need both. As children, we naturally adapt to the people and circumstances around us. We learn what gets us approval, attention, belonging, and security, and what leads to criticism, rejection, or disappointment. The problem comes when those adaptive behaviors become so automatic that we start to confuse them with who we really are.

I’ve seen this many times in my work. Someone becomes highly responsible because it earns approval, overly helpful because being needed feels safe, accomplished because achievement brings recognition, or fiercely independent because depending on others feels risky.

These patterns can work very well, sometimes for years. But when too much of our energy is going into protecting the adaptive persona, less is available for developing the authentic self.

That’s why becoming who you are meant to be starts with noticing which system you are living from and where your developmental energy is going. Into making your persona stronger or into becoming who you are meant to be.

The Authentic Self Keeps Calling Us Forward

I don’t believe our authentic self ever stops calling us to develop. There are always capacities within us that can be strengthened, expanded, and brought more fully into our lives. I think of it almost like a seed within us that keeps pressing toward growth. We can choose to listen to it, or we can keep directing our energy toward strengthening the persona we’ve already built.

That choice becomes especially important as we get older. It can be very easy to keep playing the roles we’ve become good at, doing what others expect of us, and reinforcing the identity that has brought us approval, success, or security. From the outside, everything may look fine. On the inside, however, we may feel increasingly dissatisfied, restless, flat, or disconnected from ourselves.

When we ignore that developmental pull for too long, our attention can become narrower. We may become preoccupied with what is wrong, with our aches and pains, with what other people are doing, or with maintaining the life and identity we already have. Instead of asking, “What is trying to develop in me now?” we keep making our adaptive persona work harder.

I’ve come to see this as one of the great challenges of later life. We can continue protecting and polishing the person we learned to be, or we can listen to the part of us that is still asking to grow.

To me, becoming who you are meant to be means continuing to answer that call.

Curious About Who You Are Meant to Be?

Start by getting to know your Striving Style and the Predominant Need that drives your behavior.

Your Striving Style helps you understand where your developmental energy is going. Are you using it to strengthen and maintain your adaptive persona, the self you created to cope, belong, achieve, and stay safe? Or are you directing that energy toward developing the 16 capacities of the authentic self that allow you to become more fully who you are meant to be?

That distinction can tell you a great deal about why your life feels the way it does, where you may be stuck, and what development is calling for next.

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You don’t have to keep becoming a better version of the person you learned to be to please others. Make the shift to developing your authentic self and remembering who you are meant to be.

Self-Betrayal and Finding Your Way Back to Who You Are Meant to Be

For many of us, there comes a point when something about how we live our lives suddenly becomes clear in a way it never was before. You recognize how often you’ve kept quiet because someone else’s disappointment felt too uncomfortable, how many decisions you’ve made because financial security felt too important to risk, or how much of your life has been organized around being the dependable one who keeps everything going. What once seemed like personality, responsibility, or simply the way life had to be starts looking different.

You begin to see the behavioral pattern underneath it. You see the stories you’ve told yourself to make certain choices feel necessary, and you recognize how often you’ve put aside what you knew, felt, needed, or wanted because doing so helped you feel safe. That kind of awareness can feel both exciting and deeply uncomfortable. Once you see what you’re doing and understand why, it becomes much harder to keep telling yourself there’s nothing to see.

In my book, Who Are You Meant to Be?, I wrote about the idea that, at birth, we know what we came into the world to become. And then we forget. As we interact with our families and the world around us, our brain gets busy creating neural pathways based on what we experience, what gets reinforced, and what helps us feel secure and connected. That original knowing doesn’t disappear, but it moves outside conscious awareness and becomes what Christopher Bollas called the unthought known. Somewhere inside, we still know something about who we are, even when we no longer have easy access to it.

This is why it is so easy, in childhood, to abandon our authentic selves and, based on our conditioning, create an adaptive persona to ensure out psychological survival. Our authentic self knows who we are meant to be, but we are raised to become who others prefer us to be.

We Are Unaware That We’re Adapting

By adulthood, the person we’ve learned to be feels so natural that we don’t recognize how much adaptation is still at work. We say, “I’ve always been independent,” without wondering whether independence became necessary because depending on other people didn’t feel safe. We say, “I’m just ambitious,” without asking whether achievement became the way we learned to feel valuable. We describe ourselves as caring and generous without noticing how uncomfortable we become when our needs conflict with someone else’s.

None of those qualities is bad. Independence, ambition, generosity, competence, and responsibility are genuine strengths. The problem comes when we can’t step outside them because they’re no longer simply strengths. They’ve become part of the way we protect ourselves using our adaptive persona.

That’s how self-abandonment continues without us knowing it.

You may stay in a career you’ve outgrown because the income makes you feel secure and because being successful has become such a large part of how you know yourself. You may keep saying yes to family members because their disappointment still feels much harder to tolerate than your own resentment. You may repeatedly choose what makes sense on paper even when something inside you is telling you that the choice no longer fits.

For years, you may not experience any of this as self-betrayal. It simply feels normal.

Then the light of consciousness wakes you up.

The Moment You Know

I think there’s a real difference between doing something unconsciously and continuing to do it once you know what’s happening. This is the knowing-doing gap. Before the light of awareness, you may genuinely believe that you don’t have another choice. After awareness, the question changes. You may still make the same choice for a while, but you know now that it is a choice and that you are paying the price for self-abandonment.

You may be like many people who have spent years staying in a job because it gives you financial security. You’ve told yourself that leaving would be irresponsible, even though you haven’t felt alive in the work for a long time. Increasingly, you feel depleted. Then the light goes on, and you realize that you’ve compromised yourself because your salary has come to mean security, success, status, or recognition. It touches an old fear that you won’t be okay if you can’t control what comes next.

In my late thirties, I left a well-paying position as the director of a women’s clinic to open my own psychotherapy practice. By the time I finally decided, I could see the path clearly, but it took me more than a year to admit I had overstayed because the job felt safe. I knew my path was to strike out on my own, yet giving up a secure salary for a profession that wasn’t even widely recognized at the time brought up plenty of fear.

And it wasn’t only my own fear I had to deal with. Friends and family questioned why I would leave such a good job, along with the status that came with working in a Yorkville clinic in downtown Toronto. They were convinced I would never make the same amount of money on my own and couldn’t understand why I would give up something so secure to do something that wasn’t even to them legitimate.

Their fears landed in two very different ways. My authentic self pushed back hard because I knew this was my path. My inner rebel became even more determined to follow my own path and prove I could do it. At the same time, their certainty stirred up more doubt and anxiety, because they were voicing the very fears I was already struggling with myself. Fortunately for me, anxiety has always driven me to do it anyway, especially when it came to my career. It made me stop talking about what I was doing.

The choice, when we wake up and discover that we are living life from our adaptive persona and not our authentic self, is, “Who am I when I’m not being what other people want or need me to be?”

Who Am I When I’m Not Being What You Need Me to Be?

What resides outside of the safety of our comfort zone is uncertainty. Uncertainty triggers fear. And here is the choice. We can scurry back into the safety of our persona and our comfort zone, or we can tolerate uncertainty until it becomes our new normal. This means developing resilience, becoming curious about ourselves, and becoming less one-dimensional.

If you’ve spent your life being the dependable one, who are you when nobody needs you to fix anything? If you’ve organized yourself around achievement, what do you actually want when there’s no prize at the end? If you’ve spent years keeping everyone happy, what happens when your needs are inconvenient, or someone doesn’t like a decision you make?

I’ve seen people reach a stage in life where they’re very clear about what everyone else expects from them but surprisingly unclear about themselves. They know what their partner wants, what their children need, what their clients expect, and what their work demands. Ask them what they need, though, and the answer gets much harder.

That’s not because they don’t have needs. It’s because they’ve spent so long organizing themselves around the outside world that their own inner signals have become faint. This is where awakening becomes more than simply recognizing a pattern. It becomes a process of turning inward and asking what’s actually yours.

When Self-Abandonment Becomes Conscious

Once we become aware of how we have been abandoning and neglecting the development of our authentic self, we have the power to make different decisions, despite it creating anxiety. What once felt normal when we lived from our adaptive persona becomes recognizable as a repeated turning away from and betrayal of our authentic self and what we know, feel, need, or want in order to preserve security, approval, belonging, or a self-protective identity.

Growing pains aren’t just part of physical growth. Psychological development also comes with growing pains, and awareness can feel uncomfortable because it pushes us to behave in ways that aren’t natural or normal for our adaptive persona. We recognize that nobody is making us stay silent now, remain in the wrong job, keep pleasing everyone, or continue choosing security over what feels true. Developing agency and authority is our responsibility, not someone else’s. Just because we were disempowered as children, even through traumatic conditioning, doesn’t mean that we must keep projecting authority out onto others and wait to be told we are okay to be who we now know ourselves to be. The original adaptation began when we had very little choice, but as adults, we can eventually see that we have continued living by the same rules long after the circumstances changed.

This is where self-betrayal becomes a useful way of understanding what is happening. It isn’t about blaming ourselves for having adapted. It is about recognizing that once we know what we are doing, continuing to abandon the authentic self has a psychological cost.

Reparation and the Return to the Authentic Self

Once self-betrayal becomes conscious, reparation means resuming the development of the authentic self and gradually withdrawing the energy we’ve spent strengthening the adaptive persona. For years, sometimes decades, we may have become increasingly skilled at being the competent one, the responsible one, the achiever, the peacemaker, or the person who never needs much. Those ways of functioning may have helped us feel safe and successful, but they can also keep us investing in the same familiar parts of ourselves while other capacities remain underdeveloped.

What often gets in the way is how quickly awareness turns into self-attack. I hear people in my life, and clients I work with, become angry with themselves once they see their pattern. They ask, “Why do I keep doing this?” or “What’s wrong with me?” as though the answer is that they somehow failed to know better. But that kind of self-criticism only fuels the adaptive pattern. It keeps us focused on what is wrong with us instead of becoming curious about what still needs to develop.

The adaptive persona didn’t become dominant because there was something defective in us. It became dominant because it worked. It helped us navigate childhood, maintain attachment, get our needs met, and create enough psychological safety to function. The problem is that we kept strengthening it long after the original circumstances changed, while the self-actualizing capacities of the authentic self received far less attention.

Reparation means changing where the energy goes. Instead of getting better at pleasing, achieving, controlling, overfunctioning, or whatever our familiar strategy is, we begin developing the capacities of our authentic self that let us function differently. That is how the authentic self begins to take up more space in our lives. This doesn’t mean trying to recover an earlier version of ourselves or undo every choice we regret. It means recognizing that the authentic self still has capacities that are waiting for development.

For someone who has spent decades organizing life around other people’s expectations, that can lead to a very unfamiliar question: Who am I when I’m not being what everyone else wants or needs me to be?

That question goes much deeper than career, relationships, or lifestyle. It asks us to separate what is genuinely ours from what became necessary through adaptation. It also brings us back to the central idea in Who Are You Meant to Be?: becoming ourselves isn’t about inventing a new identity. It’s about becoming conscious of what has been left undeveloped and resuming the work of becoming more fully who we were meant to be.

Self-Awareness Is Where the Return to the Authentic Self Begins

The first step in ending self-abandonment is being able to see when it’s happening. We have to recognize when the adaptive persona is taking over, understand what we’re trying to protect, and become more aware of the needs, feelings, and capacities of the authentic self that have been pushed aside. That awareness changes our relationship with ourselves because we’re no longer automatically repeating a pattern without knowing why.

This is what the Striving Styles Personality System was designed to help us see. The assessment identifies the psychological needs that drive us, the strengths we rely on most naturally, what happens when we become self-protective, and which capacities of the authentic self need further development. Take the Striving Styles Personality Assessment.

I’ve also created a free guide, The 16 Capacities of the Authentic Self, with self-awareness questions that help you look more closely at the capacities you’ve already developed and the ones that may need more attention. Download The 16 Capacities of the Authentic Self

Remembering who you are meant to be isn’t enough if you continue investing all your energy in the adaptive persona. The deeper work is becoming aware of where you’ve been abandoning yourself, forgiving yourself for the ways you learned to survive, and resuming the development of the authentic self. That’s how you stop living only as the person you learned you had to be and begin becoming more of the person you were meant to become.

The Difference Between Achievement and Psychological Need Satisfaction

Have you ever reached a goal you worked hard for and been surprised by how quickly the satisfaction disappeared?

Maybe you finally got the promotion you had been working toward. Your business reached the revenue target you had set. You bought the house, paid off the mortgage, earned the designation, became a partner, or reached a level in your career that once seemed very far away. For a while, it felt good. You were proud of yourself, relieved, excited, or simply pleased to have arrived.

Then life carried on.

Before long, another goal appeared. There was another level to reach, another problem to solve, another opportunity you felt you should pursue. You may not even have stopped to ask whether you wanted it. It was simply the next thing that made sense. This is how many of us build our lives. We become very good at moving toward what the external world tells us matters, while gradually losing touch with the question of what actually satisfies us.

That distinction becomes increasingly important as we get older because there often comes a point when achievement stops doing what it used to do. We can still succeed. We may still be very good at what we do. But something has changed inside us, and another promotion, more money, or another impressive accomplishment no longer creates the same sense of satisfaction.

When that happens, we often assume we need a new goal.

Sometimes we need to ask a very different question.

When Did You Stop Asking What You Need?

Most of us were taught very early to pay attention to what was expected of us. We learned what pleased our parents and teachers, what earned praise, what made us successful, and what helped us feel secure. As adults, the messages become even louder. We are surrounded by ideas about what a successful career should look like, how much we should earn, how far we should advance, what we should own, and what we should have accomplished by a particular age.

There is nothing inherently wrong with wanting any of those things. The difficulty comes when the external world becomes so influential that we stop checking whether what we are pursuing actually satisfies us.

Our psychological needs are not nearly as visible as our accomplishments. You can point to the promotion. You can see the salary increase. You can announce the new position on LinkedIn. It is much harder to measure whether your work gives you enough autonomy, connection, intellectual stimulation, creativity, recognition, meaning, challenge, or opportunity to influence what is happening around you.

And yet those experiences have enormous influence over whether work feels satisfying.

When we repeatedly override our internal experience in favor of what looks successful from the outside, we can slowly become disconnected from our own needs. Eventually, we become much better at answering “What should I do next?” than “What do I need at this stage of my life?” or “What might I do that would actually satisfy me now?”

That is when the external world starts making more of our decisions for us.

The Career That Worked Until It Didn’t

Think about someone who has spent twenty-five years building a successful career. They have progressed steadily, earned a good income, become respected in their field, and built the financial security they once worked hard to achieve. They know how to succeed in their organization, people trust their judgment, and they are often the person others call when something difficult needs to be handled.

For years, much of that felt genuinely satisfying. They enjoyed the challenge and the sense of accomplishment that came from becoming increasingly competent and successful in their work.

But lately, something has changed.

They still do their job well, but they no longer feel particularly energized by it. They catch themselves watching the clock in a way they never used to. Winning a new client does not excite them as much as it once did, and neither does another opportunity to prove themselves, take on a difficult assignment, or move into an even more senior role.

Nothing terrible has happened. In fact, that is part of what makes the dissatisfaction so confusing. By most external measures, they are doing extremely well.

So they begin looking outside themselves for an answer. Maybe they need a different company. Perhaps they should start their own business, take on a bigger challenge, or begin thinking seriously about retirement. They start researching possibilities because that is what they have always done when they want to move forward.

But underneath all those options is a question that is much harder to answer: what do they actually need to explore now to become who they are meant to be?

For years, their career gave them what mattered most to their adaptive persona, and doing became a priority over being. Achievement may have brought recognition, financial success may have created a sense of safety, and being the person others relied on may have reinforced their sense of value. Solving complex problems may also have met an important psychological need and contributed to the sense that their work mattered.

Those experiences were not superficial. They were genuine sources of satisfaction. The difficulty is that they may have spent so many years pursuing what worked that they have given very little attention to the needs of their authentic self.

They know how to survive by achieving. They no longer know what would feel deeply satisfying now.

Our Adaptive Persona Can Be Extremely Successful

This is where understanding the difference between the adaptive persona and the authentic self becomes important.

Our adaptive persona develops as we learn to use our natural strengths to function effectively, protect ourselves psychologically, and meet our emotional needs. It emerges from the self-protective system, and much of what it acts from is real ability. In fact, our adaptive persona can become extraordinarily successful. But its agenda is to protect by continuously being better than before. Always comparing, competing, and fearing that you aren’t good enough despite your achievements and success.

If you discovered early in life that being competent brought you recognition, you may have become exceptionally competent. If being overresponsible made you feel secure or valued, you may have become the person everyone can count on. If accomplishment gave you a strong sense of worth, you may have spent decades becoming very good at accomplishing things.

The external world tends to reward these behaviors, which makes it even easier to keep relying on them. The promotion says, “Keep doing this.” The larger salary says, “You are on the right track.” The recognition from other people tells you that the version of yourself you have developed is working very well.

And perhaps it is.

But working isn’t necessarily the same as continuing to develop. The adaptive persona can become so effective at producing success that we stop noticing how much of our life is being organized around the same familiar parts of ourselves.

What Satisfies You Is Different From What Proves You Are Successful

This distinction between achievement and need satisfaction is central to the Striving Styles Personality System.

We are born with a preference for one psychological function, and that function becomes the foundation of our dominant Striving Style, with its predominant need. Because it operates more efficiently for us, we naturally use it more often. We build strengths around it, and the psychological need connected to that function is particularly important in shaping what motivates and satisfies us.

This helps explain why the same job can feel deeply satisfying to one person and completely draining to another. We do not all need the same things from our work.

What matters is whether the experiences we are having actually satisfy our psychological needs.

The problem is that many people have never been taught to think about their careers this way. We tend to approach career development in terms of what we are capable of doing, what opportunities are available, and what will advance us professionally. We are much less likely to ask whether the environment, role, and work itself provide enough of what we psychologically need in order to thrive.

Eventually, that catches up with us.

You can be highly successful at work that no longer satisfies you. You can be exceptionally good at something that you no longer want to spend most of your life doing. You can earn more money than you ever expected to earn and still find yourself wondering why you feel flat.

That does not mean you are ungrateful. It may simply mean that the things that have been driving you are no longer enough.

This Is Why I Wrote Maximizing Your Career Potential

When I wrote the 16 Maximizing Your Career Potential books based on the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator and Striving Styles Personality System, I wanted to approach career development differently. Most career books begin with the external world. What job should you pursue? What skills do you need? What does the market want? What should your next career move be?

I wanted people to start with themselves. To go beyond just surviving to truly thriving.

One of the things the books help you explore is your own need satisfiers and dissatisfiers. Instead of immediately trying to identify the next goal, you begin looking at the experiences that actually give you energy and the ones that consistently take it away. You start noticing what you need from your work to feel engaged and psychologically satisfied, rather than assuming another achievement will automatically make you feel better.

That can change the conversation you have with yourself about your career.

You may discover that what you need is not another promotion but greater autonomy. You may realize that you have spent years being rewarded for managing people when what actually engages you is creating, exploring, analyzing, teaching, or solving difficult problems. You may recognize that you still enjoy your field but no longer want to function in the same way within it.

Sometimes the answer is an external change. But the external change becomes much more useful when it grows from an understanding of what you need rather than from the vague hope that somewhere else will feel better.

You May Have Outgrown More Than Your Job

There is another part of career dissatisfaction that I think we often miss.

Sometimes we are not simply outgrowing a job. We are outgrowing the way we have been using ourselves.

Jung understood psychological development as something that continues throughout life. We are not meant to spend our entire lifespan becoming increasingly skilled at using the function that came most naturally to us in the first place. Our dominant function gives us tremendous strengths, but it represents only part of our psychological potential.

At some point, development asks us to become more than the person we have already learned how to be. That can feel strangely unsettling when the person we have learned how to be has been very successful.

If you have spent decades being decisive, perhaps the next stage of your development requires greater receptivity. If you have built your career around taking care of everyone else, you may need to become more aware of your own needs and boundaries. If you have always relied on logic and control, you may begin feeling drawn toward experiences that require more emotional presence, creativity, or openness to uncertainty.

The pull toward these less-developed parts of ourselves can initially feel like dissatisfaction with our circumstances because that is where our attention naturally goes. We think something outside us needs to change.

Sometimes what is really happening is that something inside us wants to develop.

Before You Set Another Goal, Get Curious

If you have reached a point where success no longer feels as satisfying as you expected, you do not necessarily need to figure out your next move immediately. In fact, rushing to replace the old goal with a new one may keep you doing exactly what you have always done: looking outside yourself for the answer.

If you have spent most of your adult life setting goals, solving problems, achieving, and moving forward, not knowing what comes next can feel uncomfortable. But that uncertainty can also create the space you need to notice what has been pushed aside while you were busy building a successful life. You may begin to recognize interests you stopped making time for, experiences that energize you in a different way, or needs that have been overshadowed by achievement, responsibility, security, or the expectations of other people.

This is not about abandoning ambition. It is about understanding what you want your ambition to serve. Achievement feels very different when it grows out of who you are and what you genuinely need than when it has become the primary way you create security, establish your worth, or prove that you are succeeding.

At some point, another goal may stop being the answer. When that happens, resist the urge to immediately fill the space with the next promotion, project, business opportunity, or five-year plan. Use it as an opportunity to understand yourself differently. Your next chapter may eventually involve a new job, a different kind of work, or a significant change in how you live, but the most important shift may happen before any of those decisions are made. It begins when you stop asking achievement to tell you who you are and start paying attention to what you actually need.

If you already know your Myers-Briggs personality type, you have an easy place to begin. Use the MBTI to Striving Styles Converter to discover your Striving Style, then explore the Maximizing Your Career Potential book for your type. Rather than giving you another goal to chase, the report helps you view your career through the lens of your psychological needs, the experiences that satisfy and frustrate those needs, the strengths you naturally rely on, and the areas of yourself that may now be asking for more development.

You may discover that the question you need to answer is no longer, “What should I accomplish next?” It may be, “What do I need from my work and my life now to truly feel satisfied, and what capacities of my authentic self need to develop to meet my needs?” That is a very different starting point for your stage.

Why Success Can Make It Harder to Recognize That You Are Living Out of Alignment

Have you ever asked yourself questions like, “What if the life keeping you from becoming who you are meant to be is not obviously dysfunctional? What if you are successful at it? What if it is “good enough” or “better than most people’s”?

Are you living your life experiencing a pervasive, low-grade sense of “Is this all there is?” or a feeling that something is missing? If so, it may indicate that you are living misaligned with who you are meant to be.

This kind of misalignment can be hard to recognize because nothing appears wrong. We may be functioning well, succeeding in our work, maintaining relationships, and receiving positive reinforcement for the way we show up in the world. Yet the life we have built may be organized around the strengths and behaviours of our adaptive persona rather than the fuller range of who we are. Because those behaviours have helped us succeed, feel secure, and gain approval, there is often little external pressure to question them, even when we begin to feel that something important in us is being left out.

We are born with a self-protective system that is hard-wired to ensure our survival. As we grow and interact with our environment, we develop an adaptive persona that helps us protect ourselves psychologically and get our emotional needs met. We learn which of our natural strengths are most effective, which behaviours produce the responses we need from other people, and which parts of ourselves are safer to rely on than others.

Because the adaptive persona develops around real aspects of our personality, it rarely feels artificial. In fact, it often feels like who we are.

A child who receives recognition for being capable may increasingly rely on competence. Someone who discovers that being useful keeps them connected to others may become extraordinarily responsible and dependable. A person who feels safest when they understand and control what is happening may become highly analytical, organized, or decisive. These are genuine strengths. The difficulty arises when success continually reinforces them while other capacities remain underdeveloped.

We become very good at being one version of ourselves. Eventually, the very life that proves how successful that version has been can make it harder to recognize what has been left behind.

When the Environment Rewards the Persona

Consider someone who has built a successful career in an organization where she is known for being dependable, organized, calm under pressure, and able to get things done. She has advanced because of those qualities. People turn to her when something goes wrong. Her employer values her judgment, colleagues depend on her, and she has built a level of financial security that would be difficult to walk away from.

There is nothing inherently wrong with any of this.

But increasingly, work that once fully engaged her now feels routine. She finds herself looking forward to the end of the day rather than becoming absorbed in what she is doing, and the things that once energized her, such as meeting a new client, pursuing a business development opportunity, or taking on a complex challenge, no longer have the same pull. Nothing dramatic has happened, but the work that once felt stimulating and meaningful has gradually stopped feeling like a place where she is fully alive.

Her dissatisfaction is confusing because she has spent years creating exactly the kind of success she once wanted.

The usual explanation would be that she needs a hobby or that it’s a phase she is going through. That may be part of it, but another psychological dynamic is just as important. The job continually rewards her adaptive persona.

Every time she solves another difficult problem, takes responsibility for something that others cannot manage, or receives recognition for being the person everyone can rely on, the organization reinforces an identity that has become deeply familiar. She knows who she is there. She knows what makes her valuable. She feels safe and secure.

What makes this difficult is that she may not know what would satisfy her instead. For years, she has invested in the parts of herself that produced success, recognition, and financial security because those things helped her feel safe. Her adaptive persona has been rewarded again and again, while the needs of her authentic self have been deferred, minimized, or simply left unexplored.

She may know that the work no longer fits, but that does not mean she knows what would. She has spent so much time becoming the person who can perform, achieve, solve problems, and create security that she has had far less practice listening for what feels meaningful, enlivening, or personally important when there is no obvious reward attached to it. The question is no longer simply whether she should leave a secure job. It is whether she can begin making room for the parts of herself she has spent years putting on hold.

That is the deeper conflict. The adaptive persona knows exactly how to pursue success and safety. The authentic self has been waiting for her attention.

We Can Mistake Reinforcement for Alignment

When the world consistently rewards a particular version of us, it becomes easy to assume that this must be who we are meant to be.

The person who has always been rewarded for achievement keeps achieving. The person known for being strong keeps carrying more than everyone else. The one valued for being accommodating becomes increasingly skilled at anticipating other people’s needs. The analytical person continues moving further into thinking because that is where competence, certainty, and recognition have always been found.

Nothing about this necessarily feels maladaptive because the behavior keeps producing a payoff.

Yet psychological development is not measured solely by how effective we are at using our strongest capacities. Sometimes the question is whether those strengths have become so dominant that there is little room for anything else.

A life can be highly functional and still be developmentally narrow.

This is one of the central ideas behind the Striving Styles Personality System and a Jungian approach to development through the stages of life. We are born with a natural preference for one psychological function, and because that function operates more efficiently for us, we tend to rely on it more heavily than the others. Over time, it often becomes the foundation of our competence, identity, and adaptive persona. But we do not reach our full potential or become who we are meant to be by relying solely on our dominant function. Development requires us to bring less-preferred functions and capacities into greater consciousness and develop them so that we are not limited to responding to life through the same familiar strengths, needs, and patterns.

Without that development, our strengths can gradually become our limitations.

The Cost Often Appears as Loss of Vitality

Living out of alignment does not always produce dramatic unhappiness. Often the signs are much more subtle.

We may find ourselves increasingly bored by things we are still very good at. Accomplishments that once gave us satisfaction do not have the same effect. We may grow irritated when people keep expecting us to play a role we have willingly performed for years. We begin envying people who have made choices we would once have dismissed as impractical. We may fantasize about an entirely different life without understanding why we cannot simply appreciate the one we already have.

These experiences are easy to label as restlessness or dissatisfaction. Sometimes they are. But they can also reflect a developmental tension between the person we have become highly skilled at being and aspects of ourselves that are asking for more expression.

This is why simply adding more rewards to the existing life often does not resolve the problem. A promotion may give the competent person a larger arena in which to be competent. More responsibility may give the responsible person even more opportunities to be needed. Greater success may provide additional evidence that the persona is working exactly as intended. Yet none of those things necessarily create room for what has not been developed.

We can keep improving the life built around the adaptive persona while becoming progressively less connected to ourselves.

Outgrowing a Role Does Not Mean It Was the Wrong Role

One reason people resist acting on these feelings is that they assume dissatisfaction means they made the wrong choices.

That does not have to be true.

The career may have been exactly right for a particular stage of life. A role may have given us opportunities to strengthen capacities we genuinely needed to develop. A relationship may have supported us in important ways. The version of ourselves that created our current life may have been entirely appropriate to who we were at the time.

Development changes the equation.

As more of our personality develops, we may begin to want things that were previously less important or less accessible to us. We may have less tolerance for roles that require us to overuse one part of ourselves. We may become aware of needs that were previously overshadowed by the drive for security, achievement, approval, belonging, or control.

What once fit can stop fitting without having been a mistake.

The problem occurs when we continue treating an old adaptation as a permanent identity.

Changing the Outside Does Not Develop the Inside

When we begin to feel dissatisfied, our attention usually turns outward. We assume the problem is the job, the relationship, the city, the organization, or the circumstances we are living in. Sometimes those circumstances genuinely do need to change. But when dissatisfaction is rooted in a lack of psychological development, changing the outside does not necessarily resolve what is happening inside us.

We can leave the secure job and take the same adaptive persona into the next one. We can end a relationship and recreate similar dynamics with a new partner. We can move to another city, change careers, or completely restructure our lives and still discover that the same restlessness, frustration, or sense of incompleteness has followed us. The setting has changed, but the way we are using ourselves has not.

For the woman who has spent years organizing her life around achievement, competence, success, and financial security, leaving her job may create temporary relief or excitement. But if she continues to rely on the same dominant strengths to establish her worth and safety, she may simply rebuild the same psychological structure somewhere else. A new career can become another place to overachieve. Entrepreneurship can become another arena in which she has to prove herself. Even a major life change can be organized around the same adaptive needs that shaped the life she wanted to escape.

This is why development requires us to look inward before assuming the solution lies outside us. The more important question is not simply whether a job, relationship, or lifestyle still fits. It is whether we have developed enough of ourselves to know what our authentic self actually needs and to respond to those needs without automatically falling back on the strategies that have always made us feel safe.

Sometimes an external change is part of becoming who we are meant to be. But if we change our circumstances without developing the parts of ourselves that have been neglected, the dissatisfaction often comes with us. The deeper work is not merely creating a different life. It is developing enough of ourselves that we are capable of living that life differently.

Becoming Who You Are Meant to Be Is a Developmental Process

The idea of becoming who you are meant to be can easily be misunderstood as though there is a perfect life waiting somewhere outside you, if only you can find the right career, the right relationship, the right place to live, or the right set of circumstances. We live in a culture that continually reinforces this idea. We are encouraged to believe that happiness, security, fulfilment, and even a stronger sense of self can be found by changing what is around us.

But the external world cannot do the work of inner development for us.

Who we are meant to be is not a career, relationship, lifestyle, or destination. It is the fuller development of the personality we were born with. Our adaptive persona is part of that personality, but it is not the whole of it. It reflects the ways we learned to use ourselves to function effectively, protect ourselves psychologically, and get our needs met. Over time, we can become so invested in maintaining the life that persona helped us build that we stop noticing the parts of ourselves that have been deferred, underused, or left undeveloped.

When your inner world begins to beckon you, pay attention. The restlessness, dissatisfaction, loss of energy, or sense that something is missing may not be telling you to blow up your life. It may be asking you to turn toward yourself. To become curious about what has been neglected. To understand which parts of you have carried the burden of keeping you safe and which parts have never had enough room to develop.

That is where the work begins. You might start by building greater awareness of your patterns, taking the Striving Styles Personality Assessment, starting therapy, or beginning another form of meditation or self-exploration. Not because you are broken and need to be fixed, but because you may not yet know the self that has never been allowed to fully emerge.

Becoming who you are meant to be is not about finding a better life somewhere else. It is about developing enough of yourself that you are no longer asking the external world to provide the security, identity, and fulfilment that can only come from a deeper relationship with your own inner life.

Sometimes the greatest obstacle to becoming more fully ourselves is not failure. It is succeeding for so long at being the person we learned how to be that we stop asking, “Is this authentically who I am meant to be?”

Why Becoming Who You Are Meant to Be Begins With Discovering Yourself, Not Fixing Yourself

William Wordsworth wrote, “Our birth is but a sleep and a forgetting.”

I have always been fascinated by that idea. What if, when we come into this life, we already carry some sense of who we are meant to become? Not a detailed plan for the career we should have, the person we should marry, or the life we should create, but an inner direction. We arrive with a brain organized in a particular way, psychological needs that drive us, capacities waiting to develop, and the potential to become more fully ourselves.

Then life starts happening.

From the moment we are born, our brain is responding to the world around us. In the early years, it is rapidly creating neural connections, strengthening the ones that are repeatedly used and eventually pruning others as it becomes more efficient. At the same time, we are learning something much more personal: what it takes to live successfully in the family and environment into which we were born.

We begin noticing, long before we can put any of it into words, what brings people closer and what pushes them away. We learn what gets a smile, what earns praise, what creates tension, what makes someone withdraw, and what helps us feel secure. Little by little, we adjust.

Perhaps that is where some of the forgetting begins.

We Learn to Adapt Before We Learn to Know Ourselves

Maybe you learned to be responsible because that earned approval. Perhaps you became the peacemaker because conflict felt dangerous, the achiever because success got noticed, or the independent one because depending on others led to disappointment.

Those adaptations can become so familiar that we start calling them our personality. We become the capable one, the helpful one, the strong one, the agreeable one, or the person who never needs anything.

Then those same patterns begin to create problems. We take on too much, avoid difficult conversations, need control, seek approval, overwork, or struggle to know what we actually want.

And that is often when we start trying to fix ourselves. Instead of becoming more curious about who we are, we turn our attention outward and become increasingly dependent on signs that other people approve of the adaptive persona we are creating. Their approval reassures us that we are getting it right, so we invest even more energy in becoming the person who will be accepted, valued, successful, or loved.

At the same time, our relationship with our inner world and our authentic self begins to weaken. We spend less time reflecting on what we feel, what we need, what matters to us, and what feels genuinely enlivens us. The quieter voice of the authentic self becomes harder to hear beneath all the expectations, roles, and adaptations we have accumulated. Eventually, we can become so practiced at being who we think we should be that we lose touch with who we actually are.

The Way Back Is Inward

By the time we recognize that something is not working, our first instinct is usually to figure out what is wrong with us and try to fix the behavior. We want to stop overthinking, pleasing, controlling, overworking, avoiding conflict, or worrying about what other people think. But focusing only on the behavior keeps us working on the adaptive self we have already created.

The deeper work is to repair our relationship with our authentic self.

For years, we may have been directing most of our attention outward, monitoring what other people need, expect, value, or approve of. Our primary attachment is external, not internal. Reconnecting with ourselves requires us to reverse that orientation. We need to become interested again in our own inner world: what we feel, what we need, what energizes us, what matters to us, and what we are being pulled toward in our development.

We stop being dependent on others to regulate our self-esteem and manage our attachment anxiety. By looking inward and using ourselves as our source of authority, we become the primary reference point for who we are and who we are meant to be.

Stop Fixing Yourself and Start Discovering Yourself

This is where the Striving Styles Personality System can help. Instead of giving you another aha moment or insight into what might be wrong with you, it helps you understand yourself from the inside out.

Your Striving Style helps you see how your brain is naturally organized, your dominant function (the psychological need that drives you), the capacities of your authentic self that are naturally developed, and those that require development because they are connected to your less preferred functions. It also helps you recognize when you have moved away from that developmental path and started using your personality primarily to gain approval, avoid rejection, maintain control, or protect yourself.

That understanding changes the question. Instead of asking, “What do I need to fix or change about myself?” you can begin asking, “What capacities do I need to develop to be more fully integrated?”

As you become more connected to your authentic self, you also begin to notice how often your choices have been shaped by the outside world. You can catch yourself looking for reassurance before trusting what you already know, saying yes when something inside you is saying no, or choosing what will be approved of rather than what supports your own development.

The goal is not to stop caring about other people. It is to stop abandoning yourself in order to remain attached to them.

Prioritizing Your Authentic Self

Reconnecting with yourself requires more than insight. Your authentic self has to become a priority in your life.

That means paying attention to your psychological needs rather than continually overriding them, making room for reflection instead of filling every moment with external demands, and developing the capacities your personality needs to move beyond its familiar protective patterns. Gradually, your inner experience becomes something you consult rather than something you dismiss when it conflicts with what other people want from you.

This is where strengthening your authentic self and self-actualizing system begins. As the relationship with your authentic self becomes stronger, approval becomes information rather than direction. Other people can have expectations of you without defining you, and disappointment no longer automatically means you did something wrong.

You begin making choices from a different place, not because you have finally fixed yourself, but because you know yourself well enough to stop continually leaving yourself behind.

Becoming Who You Are Meant to Be

The Striving Styles doesn’t tell you your life purpose or prescribe the life you are supposed to live. What it can do is help you begin looking in the right place. It is the first step that leads you back to yourself, the place where your potential resides.

Becoming who you are meant to be requires moving your attention away from the endless search for external confirmation and back toward the self whose development has been waiting for your attention. As you understand how your brain is organized, what you genuinely need, and what capacities are trying to develop, you begin to separate who you are from who you learned you needed to be.

Perhaps Wordsworth’s idea of forgetting describes this better than we realize. We do not necessarily lose our authentic self. We simply become so attached to the external world and the persona we created to function within it that we stop listening to ourselves.

The journey back is not about creating a better version of that persona. It is about restoring your relationship with your authentic self, prioritizing its needs and development, and allowing it to become the increasingly conscious guide for how you live your life.

That is where the journey to remembering and becoming who you are meant to be begins.

How a Call From O, The Oprah Magazine, Helped Bring Striving Styles Into the World

In 2009, I received a call from O, The Oprah Magazine. They wanted me to create a personality quiz around a question I had already spent years thinking about:

How can I help people discover and become who they are meant to be?

They wanted a Who Are You Meant to Be? Quiz.

And there was only one catch. They needed it in about ten days. Actually, there were two catches. I was working with eight Striving Styles, and the magazine had room for seven.

Nothing like a national magazine deadline to encourage creative problem-solving. So, naturally, I did what people do when Oprah calls. I figured it out.

What appeared in the magazine looked like a personality quiz. Behind it, however, was a much bigger body of thought about personality, emotional needs, self-protective behavior, and human development.

And the response confirmed something I had already suspected: people were hungry for more than another personality label. They wanted to understand themselves in a way that actually helped them live their lives authentically and on purpose.

The Question Became a Book

That question eventually became the foundation for the book I co-wrote with my daughter and business partner, Heather Dranitsaris-Hilliard, Who Are You Meant to Be? A Step-by-Step Guide to Discovering and Fulfilling Your True Potential.

The book was never intended to tell readers that there was one perfect version of themselves hiding somewhere, waiting to be uncovered.

It was about understanding the personality you were born with, the needs and patterns that shape your behavior, and the parts of yourself that still have the potential to develop.

Because one of the things I had seen repeatedly in my work was that people could be remarkably self-aware and still feel stuck.

They could know they took over too much, avoided conflict, overfunctioned in relationships, pushed themselves relentlessly, or needed other people’s approval. They could even understand where those patterns came from.

And still keep doing them.

That interested me far more than simply assigning someone a personality type.

Personality Was Only the Beginning

My background in Jungian psychological type and the MBTI had already shown me how powerful personality insight could be. It helped explain why people notice different things, make decisions differently, communicate differently, and approach life in ways that can feel completely natural to them and completely baffling to someone else.

But I wanted to know more.

What emotional need was driving the behavior? Why did certain strengths become so heavily relied upon? What happened when those needs were threatened? Why could a natural strength become rigid or self-protective?

And, most importantly, what needed to develop next?

Those questions became central to the Striving Styles Personality System.

From “Who Am I?” to “What Can I Develop?”

Striving Styles starts with the way your preferred psychological functions are wired into your brain, but it does not stop with describing them.

The Striving Styles Personality System helps you understand the emotional needs associated with those functions, the normal behaviors and strengths you have developed around them, how you behave when you become self-protective, and which capacities of your Authentic Self need further development.

That last part is what makes the work so important to me.

Development is not about getting rid of what you don’t like about your dominant Striving Style or becoming less of who you are. It is about developing more of the capacities available through the other psychological functions in your Striving Styles Squad.

The goal is not a “better personality.”

It is about achieving your potential through understanding how your brain is hard-wired to function, the needs you must satisfied to stay motivated and maintain emotional balance, and the capacities that need to develop on your path to becoming who you are meant to be.

I’m Still Asking the Same Question

More than fifteen years after that O Magazine article, I am still fascinated by the question Who are you meant to be?

It inspired me to write Become Who You Are Meant to Be in Your Personal Life and Become Who You Are Meant to Be in Your Relationships.

It shows up in my work with leaders who have reached the limits of the strengths that made them successful. It shows up with people who understand their relationship patterns but cannot seem to move beyond them. It shows up with individuals who know there is more potential in them but do not yet know what they need to develop to access it.

That is why Striving Styles has become the thread connecting so much of my work as a developmental therapist, leadership coach, author, and MBTI Certified Practitioner.

The question may have started as a magazine assignment. It turned into a book. And it continues to shape a system designed to help people understand not only who they are, but also who they are capable of becoming.

Curious About Who You Are Meant to Be?

The Striving Styles Personality Assessment is the place to begin. It can help you understand how you are wired, what drives your behavior, what you naturally rely on, and where your development needs to go next.

If you want to take that understanding further, I also use Striving Styles in my work with leadership, personal development, and relationships.

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